I wasn’t suppose to be a Christian: Because I was suppose to be DEAD!
I was 14 and 1/2 years old when I became a Christian. ( Young wasn’t it? ) Before then, I was like a ship without a sail. A Wonderer.
Three times before my birth, my life was in jeopardy, with 2 abortion attempts ( not any fault of my mother’s) then the umbilical cord was wrapped around my neck at my birth. The doctor actually said that if I stayed in the womb one more minute I would be dead. Halleluiah!
Just at my birth, I was supposed to be given up for adoption. My adopted parents were actually present at the hospital to collect me. But my mom could not give me up. Haleluiah!
Satan tried several times to destroy me but it did not work. God had a work for me to do.
I am the youngest of a family of six children, and when I was growing up I felt alone, I felt ‘not understood’. I felt different. I felt like no one cared. Can you relate to that feeling ?
More Problems. More Steps Closer To The Christian Door
Before becoming a Christian I has on and off fits of depression. At one time everything would seem ok, then at another time everything seemed like too much to bear. I just wanted not be born. After all, what was the use of me taking up space on the earth. I cried constantly and secluded myself from others.
Then one day I watched a picture with a young lady that used to cut herself and that’s when I became a secret cutter. I would give myself tiny cuts in order to release the pain that I held inside. This did not work so I tried poetry as an outlet for my emotions. That gave me a temporary release but never lasted long.
I turned to parties and dances but that did not satisfy my need either. I was a member of what you might call ‘the popular kids crew’ in school, but to me, I felt like I was just following the crowd. Doing what they did and saying what my friends said. I never really felt like I fit in.
I was searching for something, but I had no clue what it was. All I knew was that I had a void, an emptiness inside me, that nothing could fill. Nothing.
I Began to Listen To The Messages At Church
I was an avid church goer. My mom was a Christian so every time the door was opened, I was there. There were a handful of times when I felt the desires to say yes to Jesus, however, being young, most of the time I had no clue what was going on and was never too interest in anything that was said or done.
But as the time got closer I found myself getting interested in what the preacher was saying.
What compounded the issue was that the parties that once used to seem awesome was not fun to me anymore. The places I went was not exciting anymore. I found myself with crowds of people but I felt all alone.
What was wrong happening to me?
The Solution of Becoming a Christian
It all began when I heard a sermon, ( the joke about it is that I cannot even remember what the message was about,) that changed my life. I was so pricked, that it was like hammering a thousand nails into my heart. I wanted to cry then and there. I said to myself, let me try this Jesus. Let me see if he can fix my situation….and so, I started my Christian walk.
Let me tell you this, he did fix my situation.
No joke. No Lie. HE DID!
Jesus has completely and totally satisfied me. All emptiness…gone! The loneliness….gone! He filled my life and made it worth living. Without Him I truly have no clue where I would be today. saying yes to Jesus was the beset decision that I have ever made.
Jesus has never failed me once, in my 17 years of being in this Christian Faith. He has proven to be EVERTHING he says he is and more and I love him for that. Now, I’m busy bringing others to Jesus Christ.
I am therefore introducing you to a God that WORKS! He is still in the Saving business, delivering business, and the healing business. Accept Jesus today and let Him make the difference in your Christian life. You know..many may call this just simple Christian beliefs. I call it, FREEDOM!
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